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#1
Posted 20 December 2016 - 04:08 AM
I asked if I should kill myself. I had been crying out for help for a very long time. And looking back, I very much needed help. I consider myself extremely lucky.
The members who commented on that topic back then saved my life. You helped me in ways I can never repay. You guys reassured me and gave me the courage I needed to keep living. And I'm so grateful for it.
Im writing this post as a thank you and a way to let you guys know that things have gotten so much better.
My anemia is still here. And it still gives me trouble. But I don't need to drink blood anymore. I received financial help that enabled me to get the pricier treatments. I've also been actively taking care of my body through diet and exercise. My body has become much stronger. Pretty awesome.
I no longer live with my abusive family. I've been living on my own for a few years now. And honestly, living on my own is hard sometimes. Bills are tough to pay. But I love it. I love waking up every morning and I (usually) go to bed in a good mood.
My life has gotten so much better, and it wouldn't have gotten better if any of my 22 suicide attempts had been successful. You guys reassured me that time. And I fell back into darkness. I tried to kill myself despite what you all told me. I knew how much you guys loved me, but the pain of my parents hate was too much for me to bare.
But nowadays. I'm no longer held back by them. I'm living my own life. I've grown tougher skin, and when people tell me that I should die, I can ignore them, because I know how much I'm loved. I've gained a fire that gives me the strength to live my life however I want.
A month ago, my house was destroyed in an attack by people that wanted me dead. Luckily, I wasn't home. I currently am living in my car, as I can't afford to get a new place at present. This honestly hasn't deterred me all that much. I was never really home much anyway, as I'm always in my car traveling somewhere.
But despite recent hardships, I can live without doubt, and I love it. I know that not everyone loves me, but that doesn't bother me anymore. I know I'm loved. I know I'm important. And the people who think otherwise can screw off. Including my depression.
I am alive, and I love it. And I thank you all for being my friends.
- Fire Blazer, Golden Warrior, Whitewolf8 and 4 others like this
"You got a jacked up notion of fair play pal...and it's beginning to piss me off."
"Though a fight every now and again does make life a little more interesting...dontcha think?"
^ This isn't dead, I swear!
Most of my closest friends have qualities that I despise. But I love them all regardless of their faults.
"Why are we trying to narrow God's mercy? I didn't realize there was a limit to how many people could go to heaven."
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#2
Posted 20 December 2016 - 10:43 AM
Actually a real smart genius man, but I'll never show it.
#3
Posted 20 December 2016 - 05:55 PM
"You got a jacked up notion of fair play pal...and it's beginning to piss me off."
"Though a fight every now and again does make life a little more interesting...dontcha think?"
^ This isn't dead, I swear!
Most of my closest friends have qualities that I despise. But I love them all regardless of their faults.
"Why are we trying to narrow God's mercy? I didn't realize there was a limit to how many people could go to heaven."
This will not be removed until I finish my Sprite Series. Arim and AJ VS The World Started December 19, 2013 (I actually still haven't given up on this! XD)
This will not be removed until The Demon Invasion is finished. Started December 19, 2013 (Hue)
3DS Friend Code 0834 - 1057 - 3616
#4
Posted 21 December 2016 - 01:54 AM
Actually a real smart genius man, but I'll never show it.
#5
Posted 31 December 2016 - 12:09 PM
I can't take any credit for anything, but glad you're better.
#6
Posted 11 January 2017 - 08:27 AM
I wasn't ever involved in this either but it's brilliant news to hear you're doing well, you find friends in the most unlikely places whether they be online or real life - there is always someone to reach out to who will listen. Life always gets better, you just have to hang in there to see it for yourself and I'm sure you're glad you did
#7
Posted 12 January 2017 - 05:50 AM
Well holy hell Arim! Glad I could be of some assistance. So glad to hear you're doing better. You are an absolutely amazing dude and the first person I considered a friend here on FES (sorry Pie ). Wish you a good future, I'll be praying for you. It's a damn fine pleasure knowing you bud.
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#8
Posted 15 January 2017 - 11:16 AM
Actually a real smart genius man, but I'll never show it.
#9
Posted 15 January 2017 - 09:02 PM
Yo dude, sorry I didn't see this post until now (so many of us FES members are lazy and I'm a terrible role model)
I don't really want to "take credit" for anything, if I said anything back then it was presumably just how I felt
what's really important is that things seem to be going a bit better for you and that you're still alive, I know we have very different personalities and views on things but I still appreciate how kind of a person you are and I still respect you a lot as I have, and I know it's the same for others, keep doing what you do and chugging on, knowing that if something lame or tough happens again there are people who've got your back... and your front... and your sides... maybe your top too... idk about under you though that might be creepy lol sorry this turned into a weird kinda joke at the end
Signature thanks to Shu.
#10
Posted 14 February 2017 - 06:18 PM
"You got a jacked up notion of fair play pal...and it's beginning to piss me off."
"Though a fight every now and again does make life a little more interesting...dontcha think?"
^ This isn't dead, I swear!
Most of my closest friends have qualities that I despise. But I love them all regardless of their faults.
"Why are we trying to narrow God's mercy? I didn't realize there was a limit to how many people could go to heaven."
This will not be removed until I finish my Sprite Series. Arim and AJ VS The World Started December 19, 2013 (I actually still haven't given up on this! XD)
This will not be removed until The Demon Invasion is finished. Started December 19, 2013 (Hue)
3DS Friend Code 0834 - 1057 - 3616
#11
Posted 17 February 2017 - 12:50 AM
I know I'm super late on this thread, but I just want to toss in my thoughts.
Thanks. Thanks for coming to us, thanks for letting us help you and letting us be your friend. You are now one of the people I consider a closest friend and I feel like there would be a definite gap in my life were it not for you still being here. Knowing that I was a part, even if small, of keeping you alive and keeping you up until your life got better makes me extremely happy. I'm glad your here and a part of what makes me feel like I'm important as well. I could probably go on and on about all the events I was glad I could be support in and glad you could support me through, but that list would be quite large and I don't feel like tossing that much onto one forum post haha. So I'll leave it with this: Keep being awesome.
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#12
Posted 02 March 2017 - 01:47 PM
I knew your condition and situation were pretty bad back then, but I had no idea how truly bad it was until now, and honestly, it makes me all the more satisfied that you've gotten past all of it, and moved on.
I'm not taking credit for anything, since I didn't really do much, if anything, to help you get to where you are now. But I'll have to say, you've come a long way since I've first seen you.
Even when times are dire, keep pressing forward and don't look back. Keep doing what you're doing right now. It's making you a stronger person, and it shows.
Fighting the ghosts of my past. I'd rather not remember who I once used to be..
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