Specifically I seem to have a felon from accidentally cutting myself on Monday and at this point of time it's started to throb under the band-aid and go red. I do intend to go to the doctor but I guess I just want some placebo for now to be able to look at this thing and not imagine having to amputate it and go Yakuza style for the rest of my life because of a tiny little cut. And if the past two days have been troublesome enough with a painful left thumb, it's going to be much worse without one at all. It is quite difficult (well moreso than usual) to fall asleep when I've had to be vigilant of a potential thief for a few days and when I'm afraid of my finger getting worse from when I can't watch what my body is doing or whether a mosquito or something wants to fuck it up further for shits and giggles.
And if you want to go about trolling I guess I'll just have to tell myself at least it isn't my right thumb, because losing that might finally convince me to fight against instinct and just go to hell already before financial hell gets me first.