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@  kirant : (25 June 2017 - 06:05 AM) There are fewer bots which make it in. It seems like the software blocking them out is getting better.
@  Idiot : (25 June 2017 - 05:36 AM) I mean probably the former, but hey you never know.
@  Idiot : (25 June 2017 - 05:36 AM) Either kirants doing a really good job at killing them, or their AI is becoming self-aware and improving it's capabilities.
@  Idiot : (25 June 2017 - 05:34 AM) I can't even spot the bots anymore.
@  Fire Blazer : (24 June 2017 - 05:16 AM) thanks Kirant lol
@  Whitewolf8 : (24 June 2017 - 01:47 AM) ...I should revise my statement.
A corpse of a bot is on the porch. ...pokepokepoke.
@  kirant : (24 June 2017 - 12:22 AM) It's not on the loose if I kill it, right?
@  Whitewolf8 : (23 June 2017 - 11:59 PM) Aaaand another bot seems to be on the loose.
@  Fire Blazer : (23 June 2017 - 06:46 PM) :)
@  Idiot : (23 June 2017 - 03:00 PM) Haha, good enough for me Blazer.
@  Whitewolf8 : (23 June 2017 - 12:05 PM) I am also still here. sort of. kind of. maybe. Also doubt I will 'actually' leave.
@  Fire Blazer : (23 June 2017 - 04:46 AM) and ofc, y'all are always free (if not welcome/encouraged) to chat me up somewhere else, though I don't intend to forcibly shut down these forums or anything for as long as I reasonably can
@  Fire Blazer : (23 June 2017 - 04:45 AM) You guys all bring up good points... not much I can say... or perhaps I'm just exhausted from everything going on in my life right now and don't feel like saying much... but know that I appreciate and look fondly on the time I have spent with you all... I'd probably even miss "Idiot", heh :P
@  Elwood : (22 June 2017 - 10:39 PM) I love this place. Doubt I'll leave as long as it exists. It's still my homepage so rest assured I'm always here a few times a day.
@  kirant : (22 June 2017 - 06:56 PM) True. You often begin stabilizing your interests and mentality in your late 20s.
@  Rujio : (22 June 2017 - 05:36 PM) Especially with forums like this that target a younger audience. Yeah a 45 year-old might stick around the same places when he's 55, but a 13 year old and a 23 year old are likely to have pretty different interests.
@  Rujio : (22 June 2017 - 05:35 PM) I mean, the problem is that this is/was a particular community, and communities like that change/go away over time. It's the same at any other forum, it's just that some places have the old communities replaced by new ones.
@  Idiot : (22 June 2017 - 10:29 AM) And that's from someone with only 6 years of experience under their belt here. Can't imagine how the real veterans feel about it lol.
@  Idiot : (22 June 2017 - 10:25 AM) Yeah but even so, the ones that have stuck around this long are all really great people. I wouldn't trade the memories and conversations I've had with everyone on here for any super popular forum. Though, I'm not the one who created it so obviously we come from pretty different perspectives.
@  Fire Blazer : (22 June 2017 - 08:37 AM) I think I was harboring this notion in the back of my head that, once I get a lot of free time again, I'll restore it to its glory days, but it's not nearly that simple, and I don't think I'll have said free time in the next 5, maybe even 10 years anyway, so it's probably a bit naive of me... lol

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#1 arimibn

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Posted 20 December 2016 - 04:08 AM

4 years ago, in June. I came to the people of FES asking for help. I was mentally broken and didn't know who to turn to. I was considering suicide. I was ready to give up.


I asked if I should kill myself. I had been crying out for help for a very long time. And looking back, I very much needed help. I consider myself extremely lucky.


The members who commented on that topic back then saved my life. You helped me in ways I can never repay. You guys reassured me and gave me the courage I needed to keep living. And I'm so grateful for it.


Im writing this post as a thank you and a way to let you guys know that things have gotten so much better.


My anemia is still here. And it still gives me trouble. But I don't need to drink blood anymore. I received financial help that enabled me to get the pricier treatments. I've also been actively taking care of my body through diet and exercise. My body has become much stronger. Pretty awesome.


I no longer live with my abusive family. I've been living on my own for a few years now. And honestly, living on my own is hard sometimes. Bills are tough to pay. But I love it. I love waking up every morning and I (usually) go to bed in a good mood.


My life has gotten so much better, and it wouldn't have gotten better if any of my 22 suicide attempts had been successful. You guys reassured me that time. And I fell back into darkness. I tried to kill myself despite what you all told me. I knew how much you guys loved me, but the pain of my parents hate was too much for me to bare.


But nowadays. I'm no longer held back by them. I'm living my own life. I've grown tougher skin, and when people tell me that I should die, I can ignore them, because I know how much I'm loved. I've gained a fire that gives me the strength to live my life however I want.


A month ago, my house was destroyed in an attack by people that wanted me dead. Luckily, I wasn't home. I currently am living in my car, as I can't afford to get a new place at present. This honestly hasn't deterred me all that much. I was never really home much anyway, as I'm always in my car traveling somewhere.


But despite recent hardships, I can live without doubt, and I love it. I know that not everyone loves me, but that doesn't bother me anymore. I know I'm loved. I know I'm important. And the people who think otherwise can screw off. Including my depression.


I am alive, and I love it. And I thank you all for being my friends.
"You'll never forgive me? Like I give a damn."
"You got a jacked up notion of fair play pal...and it's beginning to piss me off."
"Though a fight every now and again does make life a little more interesting...dontcha think?"
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#2 Idiot

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Posted 20 December 2016 - 10:43 AM

Hey man super happy to hear it. Shit like that's hard to back from, glad you didn't succumb to it. Love you bro.
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#3 arimibn

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Posted 20 December 2016 - 05:55 PM

Thank you very much Idiot who I am assuming is Pie.
"You'll never forgive me? Like I give a damn."
"You got a jacked up notion of fair play pal...and it's beginning to piss me off."
"Though a fight every now and again does make life a little more interesting...dontcha think?"
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^ This isn't dead, I swear!
Most of my closest friends have qualities that I despise. But I love them all regardless of their faults.
"Why are we trying to narrow God's mercy? I didn't realize there was a limit to how many people could go to heaven."

This will not be removed until I finish my Sprite Series. Arim and AJ VS The World Started December 19, 2013 (I actually still haven't given up on this! XD)

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#4 Idiot

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Posted 21 December 2016 - 01:54 AM

Haha yeah that's me.
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Posted 31 December 2016 - 12:09 PM

I can't take any credit for anything, but glad you're better.


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Posted 11 January 2017 - 08:27 AM

I wasn't ever involved in this either but it's brilliant news to hear you're doing well, you find friends in the most unlikely places whether they be online or real life - there is always someone to reach out to who will listen. Life always gets better, you just have to hang in there to see it for yourself and I'm sure you're glad you did :)



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Posted 12 January 2017 - 05:50 AM

Well holy hell Arim! Glad I could be of some assistance. So glad to hear you're doing better. You are an absolutely amazing dude and the first person I considered a friend here on FES (sorry Pie :P). Wish you a good future, I'll be praying for you. It's a damn fine pleasure knowing you bud.


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#8 Idiot

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Posted 15 January 2017 - 11:16 AM

That's ok Elwood I'm just happy to be included.
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Posted 15 January 2017 - 09:02 PM

Yo dude, sorry I didn't see this post until now (so many of us FES members are lazy and I'm a terrible role model)

 

I don't really want to "take credit" for anything, if I said anything back then it was presumably just how I felt

 

what's really important is that things seem to be going a bit better for you and that you're still alive, I know we have very different personalities and views on things but I still appreciate how kind of a person you are and I still respect you a lot as I have, and I know it's the same for others, keep doing what you do and chugging on, knowing that if something lame or tough happens again there are people who've got your back... and your front... and your sides... maybe your top too... idk about under you though that might be creepy lol sorry this turned into a weird kinda joke at the end


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Posted 14 February 2017 - 06:18 PM

Thanks guys.
"You'll never forgive me? Like I give a damn."
"You got a jacked up notion of fair play pal...and it's beginning to piss me off."
"Though a fight every now and again does make life a little more interesting...dontcha think?"
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^ This isn't dead, I swear!
Most of my closest friends have qualities that I despise. But I love them all regardless of their faults.
"Why are we trying to narrow God's mercy? I didn't realize there was a limit to how many people could go to heaven."

This will not be removed until I finish my Sprite Series. Arim and AJ VS The World Started December 19, 2013 (I actually still haven't given up on this! XD)

This will not be removed until The Demon Invasion is finished. Started December 19, 2013 (Hue)

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Posted 17 February 2017 - 12:50 AM

I know I'm super late on this thread, but I just want to toss in my thoughts. 

Thanks. Thanks for coming to us, thanks for letting us help you and letting us be your friend. You are now one of the people I consider a closest friend and I feel like there would be a definite gap in my life were it not for you still being here.  Knowing that I was a part, even if small, of keeping you alive and keeping you up until your life got better makes me extremely happy. I'm glad your here and a part of what makes me feel like I'm important as well. I could probably go on and on about all the events I was glad I could be support in and glad you could support me through, but that list would be quite large and I don't feel like tossing that much onto one forum post haha. So I'll leave it with this: Keep being awesome. 


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#12 Falaflame

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Posted 02 March 2017 - 01:47 PM

I knew your condition and situation were pretty bad back then, but I had no idea how truly bad it was until now, and honestly, it makes me all the more satisfied that you've gotten past all of it, and moved on.

I'm not taking credit for anything, since I didn't really do much, if anything, to help you get to where you are now. But I'll have to say, you've come a long way since I've first seen you.

 

Even when times are dire, keep pressing forward and don't look back. Keep doing what you're doing right now. It's making you a stronger person, and it shows.


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