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4 years ago, in June. I came to the people of FES asking for help. I was mentally broken and didn't know who to turn to. I was considering suicide. I was ready to give up.
I asked if I should kill myself. I had been crying out for help for a very long time. And looking back, I very much needed help. I consider myself extremely lucky.
The members who commented on that topic back then saved my life. You helped me in ways I can never repay. You guys reassured me and gave me the courage I needed to keep living. And I'm so grateful for it.
Im writing this post as a thank you and a way to let you guys know that things have gotten so much better.
My anemia is still here. And it still gives me trouble. But I don't need to drink blood anymore. I received financial help that enabled me to get the pricier treatments. I've also been actively taking care of my body through diet and exercise. My body has become much stronger. Pretty awesome.
I no longer live with my abusive family. I've been living on my own for a few years now. And honestly, living on my own is hard sometimes. Bills are tough to pay. But I love it. I love waking up every morning and I (usually) go to bed in a good mood.
My life has gotten so much better, and it wouldn't have gotten better if any of my 22 suicide attempts had been successful. You guys reassured me that time. And I fell back into darkness. I tried to kill myself despite what you all told me. I knew how much you guys loved me, but the pain of my parents hate was too much for me to bare.
But nowadays. I'm no longer held back by them. I'm living my own life. I've grown tougher skin, and when people tell me that I should die, I can ignore them, because I know how much I'm loved. I've gained a fire that gives me the strength to live my life however I want.
A month ago, my house was destroyed in an attack by people that wanted me dead. Luckily, I wasn't home. I currently am living in my car, as I can't afford to get a new place at present. This honestly hasn't deterred me all that much. I was never really home much anyway, as I'm always in my car traveling somewhere.
But despite recent hardships, I can live without doubt, and I love it. I know that not everyone loves me, but that doesn't bother me anymore. I know I'm loved. I know I'm important. And the people who think otherwise can screw off. Including my depression.
I am alive, and I love it. And I thank you all for being my friends.
On a serious note, I don't mind the competitive mentality so long as people know when it's necessary and when it isn't. Some people take online gaming WAY too seriously. Or just gaming in general. I can understand the desire to win. But if you lose, it ain't the end of the world, and taking it out on your teammates isn't going to fix anything.
When I first started playing League, people complained about the noob. All the time. Lol But then I started to
1st Place prize is $30. 2nd Place prize is $15. 3rd Place prize is $5. You need a paypal account in order to receive your prize. Yes. Paypal is free. And if you register for a paypal debit card, you can make offline purchases with your paypal account. Lol
The theme of this month's contest is the Mobile game Chain Chronicle.
No, it does not have to follow the 16 color limit. If you make any updates to your mug and the registration deadline has not passed, you may send the updated version to me. Keep in mind that your previous entry will be overwritten. So don't try sending in 10 sprites. Because you won't have 10 chances to win, you'll still have only one.
Mugs will scored across 4 categories on a 1 to 5 scale. There are 5 judges, so the max a mug can get is 100 points.
The categories are:
Theme Quality How closely it resembles the original Outside the box thinking
Once the entry deadline has passed, members will be able to score mugs on an overall scale of 1 to 3.
I reserve the right to disqualify you at any time. So don't be a jerk, k? You may ask as many questions as you want though. REGISTRATION CLOSES June 20th @ the time I make the announcement post.
Okay. So I've decided, if the last judge doesn't get back to me by tomorrow, that judge's score won't be considered, and whoever is in the lead will be declared the winner.